Monday, February 3, 2014


Today I painted. with cheap plastic brushes and cheap paint. I was trying so hard to be creative but instead...I just felt like a 5 year old. I cant quite decided if that's a bad thing or not. Its good to let the "kid" out every once in a while. I guess I just wish I could paint better than a 5 year old. (no offense to that's just...ya know??)

Occasionally, when I feel like drinking milk, I drink straight from the jug. My mother would be so ashamed. Sorry Mom.

I told myself I was only going to eat one cookie today. I ate 3. Darn it. But hey they are all gone now so I don't have anything to worry about tomorrow!

Winter is not my favorite. The gray colors, brown grass, and empty trees are starting to get to me. On my walk today I really wished it was Spring! Really bad.

In less than 3 weeks, I will receive the title of "Mommy" from a little baby boy. I'm excited, scared, and calm all at the same time. Don't ask me how that works.

 I can't wait to meet this little boy that I have been carrying for the last 9 months. It brings so much joy to my heart; imagining holding him, and imagining Scott holding him. Kissing him, cuddling him, feeding him, changing his diapers, reading to him, watching him sleep, and watching every new little thing that he'll do. A little obsessed?? maybe, but he'll be mine so I'm allowed to be.  

Family. That's what this life is all about.

We laughed until we cried...well I cried!

Sometimes life just gives you golden moments of joy. Where there are no worries or stresses and you feel like a kid again. These are gems. I LOVE them and treasure them in precious memories, tucked deep inside so i'll never forget.

One of those gems happened today during lunch.

I didn't get any pictures because neither of us wanted black mail pictures and honestly I was laughing so hard I couldn't.

We had just finished our pizza lunch when Scott started on some grapes that we had packed.

Remember when grapes were so fun to eat when you were a kid...cuz you didn't just eat them, you played with them?

Yeah...that's what we did. Grapes slid perfectly between our teeth and upper lip as to give a perfect mouse face.

I was laughing so hard, yes it's true, I began crying. I can't tell you the last time I remember laughing so hard!! Tears, scrunchy face, bent in half, abs tight kind of laughing. I probably almost peed my pants too.

I tried to join the grape fun, but kept popping them out of my mouth due to intense laughter.

It was definitely a moment I didn't want to end and that I want to remember forever!

Gold, pure gold.